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cruelsister-moved2 · 2 years ago

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i need therapy from being a twin fr there needs to be twin specialist therapists😭😭😭 every time ive been to a therapist it gets awkward because I end up 90% talking about twin stuff and they literally dont know how to respond or deal with it, honestly some of them made me feel worse by not understanding how much it can impact u and they want to talk about something else because they must think there's no way my issues can be so rooted in something so minor but literally the more I get to know myself literally every single thing is that at some point

#I had such low self esteem -> moved to the other side of the country from my sister -> completely fine #I still have a lot of stuff I get very. I guess triggered by that are just down to being a twin #idek how to explain like our relationship in particular was always so unhealthy but how its exacerbated by the closeness #and her ability to have dominance over me esp as I became more n more shy and anxious #and she became more and more confident #she went to boarding school at 16 and id literally feel sick with dread abt her coming back #and now I'm just a completely different person to who I was when I lived in the same house as her #but even still any time I see her I just go right back to being that person like no matter how Healed I am #yet. you wouldn't think it from everything I've just said but we're super close LOL SHSJSIEIJSHDHS #non identical twins DNI thays just siblings born at the same time

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